Hilal, for her words of forgiveness
Forgiveness from the novel Aleph by Paulo Coelho Published by Harper Collins
Remember the Aleph. Remember what you felt at that moment. Try to bring into this sacred place something that you don’t know but that is there in your heart. If necessary, think of a favorite symphony and let it guide you to where you need to go. That’s all that matters now. Words, explanations, and questions won’t help; they’ll only confuse something that is already quite complex enough. Forgive me, but let that forgiveness come from the depths of your soul, the same soul that passes from one body to another and learns as it travels through nonexistent time and infinite space.
Remember the Aleph. Remember what you felt at that moment. Try to bring into this sacred place something that you don’t know but that is there in your heart. If necessary, think of a favorite symphony and let it guide you to where you need to go. That’s all that matters now. Words, explanations, and questions won’t help; they’ll only confuse something that is already quite complex enough. Forgive me, but let that forgiveness come from the depths of your soul, the same soul that passes from one body to another and learns as it travels through nonexistent time and infinite space.
We
can never wound the soul, just as we can never wound God, but we can
become imprisoned by our memories, and that makes our lives wretched
even when we have everything we need in order to be happy. If only we
could be entirely here, as if we had just woken up on planet Earth
and found ourselves inside a golden temple, but we can’t.
I
don’t see why I should forgive the man I love. Or perhaps only for
one thing, for never having heard those same words on his lips.
The
girl forgives you, not because she has become a saint but because she
can no longer bear to carry this burden of hatred. Hating is very
wearisome. I don’t know if something is changing in Heaven or
on Earth, or if my soul is being damned or saved, but I feel utterly
exhausted, and only now do I understand why. I forgive the man who
tried to destroy me when I was ten years old. He knew what he was
doing, and I did not. But I felt that it was my fault, and I hated
him and myself. I hated everyone who came near me, but now my soul is
being set free.
I
forgive everything and everyone, including you, even though I don’t
know what crime you have committed. I forgive you because I love you
and because you don’t love me. I forgive you because you help me to
stay close to my Devil, even though I haven’t thought of him for
years. I forgive you because you reject me and my powers are wasted,
and I forgive you because you don’t understand who I am or what I’m
doing here. I forgive you and the Devil who touched my body before I
even knew what life was about. He touched my body but distorted my
soul.
I
free myself from hatred through forgiveness and love. I understand
that suffering, when it cannot be avoided, is here to help me on my
way to glory. I understand that everything is connected, that all
roads meet, and that all rivers flow into the same sea. That is why I
am, at this moment, an instrument of forgiveness, forgiveness for
crimes that were committed; one crime I know about, the other I do
not.
I
forgive the tears I was made to shed,
I
forgive the pain and the disappointments,
I
forgive the betrayals and the lies,
I
forgive the slanders and intrigues,
I
forgive the hatred and the persecution,
I
forgive the blows that hurt me,
I
forgive the wrecked dreams,
I
forgive the stillborn hopes,
I
forgive the hostility and jealousy,
I
forgive the indifference and ill will,
I
forgive the injustice carried out in the name of justice,
I
forgive the anger and the cruelty,
I
forgive the neglect and the contempt,
I
forgive the world and all its evils.
I
also forgive myself.
May
the misfortunes of the past no longer weigh on my heart.
Instead
of pain and resentment, I choose understanding and compassion.
Instead
of rebellion, I choose the music from my violin.
Instead
of grief, I choose forgetting.
Instead
of vengeance, I choose victory.
I
will be capable of loving, regardless of whether I am loved in
return,
Of
giving, even when I have nothing,
Of
working happily, even in the midst of difficulties,
Of
holding out my hand, even when utterly alone and abandoned,
Of
drying my tears, even while I weep,
Of
believing, even when no one believes in me.
So
it is. So it will be.
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